God had NOTHING to do with this. I did this MYSELF.

People love a good success story.

More than anything people love underdog-you was never gonna make it- we had no faith in you success stories.

They tell them over and over and over.

Those stories can be so powerful. So true. So inspiring.

It’s funny to be a living, breathing example of that story.

My story is a testament of a girl so stubborn, so headstrong, so furious but more than anything so prideful that she carved a path she ‘thought’ was her own.

If you know me, then you know my story. You know my history.

Though you may not be well-aware of my struggles I assure they not only were present but have persisted as I reach for my dream of obtaining  PhD.

A few days ago, I was overwhelmed by a feeling of grace, gratefulness and appreciation.

I was also overwhelmingly sad.

Over the past 6-7 years, my decisions have been focused heavily on my academic career.

In the beginning it was rooted in so much pride. Go to the best school. Get the best GPA. Get a Master’s. Work for a PhD.

I have spent many years trying to prove something to myself. To the world. And I thought, I was doing this alone.

In my early educational career I do not recall calling on the power of God in my decisions making as much as I should have. I neglected asking God where I belonged when it came to college or a career.

Though I may have neglected to ask, he never neglected to let me know.

From my mother persuading me to go to Carolina.

To randomly finding the MEd program at UNC.

To accidentally finding the PhD program at UNCG.

My journey has been marred with self-righteous moments when I thought that I was traversing waters unknown only to find out that honey, this path had been paved for me long before I even took my first breath.

A piece of humble pie can rattle you to your core. I am so thankful that I have been rattled.

I have done nothing. He has done it all.

I have made no decision that he has not directed.

I have taken no path that he has not first carved out my steps for.

I had absolutely nothing to do with this. God did it all.

A man’s pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor. Proverbs 29:23

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor. James 4:10

xoxo

Miss Locklear

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